why ?

why am i worrying about YOU ?
why my mind kip flash back about YOU ?
why the first person i need to msg is YOU ?
why the first thing all i will thinkabout YOU ?
why ?
WHY ! ?

haiihss

fuck me ?

fuck me ?
iziit ?
fuck me yahs ?
okies . go on ~
its just simple n relaxing the days without euu ~ thanks GOD
i dun care what u fuck me .
i dun care what u critic me .
BUT please dun be OVER .
thats all .

what the hell is going on ?

WHY!?
first time i feel so DESPARATE .
the first time i feel so UNCOMFORT .
the first time i feel so LONELY .
the first time i feel so DISSAPOINTED .
why would this things occur in my life ?

the whole day full of f***ings mood .
frm morning till night , did i smile ?
morning wake up , dad crap , crap till i fed up
PONTENG .
when PONTENG he will find many reasons to talk . F*** i dun like those stuffs .
afta that hp drop . just bought then drop . WTF is going on ?
at night . been scolded by DAD like DOG .

i just wanted to find YOU to chat about what i feel , is it wrong ?
YOU the one who say i dwn tell u . and nw i tell u , what u replied me ?
few wordings that make me feel uncomfortable .
if you were me . i just reply u this stuffs of words what would u feel ?
cant u just feel what im feeling ? and what the purpose u reply me that msg i knw ? u din ever tell me whats going on with YOU .

nevermind . its fine . HURT cant be paste back .
i just cant imagine YOU told me those stuffs .
FINE .
u just mind what i tell u .
thats all .

IM RELI DISAPOINTED on YOU !

16 October 2009 , a SAD day ~

yesterday nite , had some conflict v sumone who i cares much . i knw im BAD . i cant even gv u the happy that u want , but evyday i try hard to gv u the happiness that u need . but , i reli nt want this thing happen , its just an misunderstand . its my fault , i din find out properly then just shoot u without reason .
But . what u told me isit true ? u said that YOU WONT DOWANT ME , WONT LEAVE ME ? but nw ? i text u , fb-ing u, msn u . what i get ? i just get a white message . i knw i mess u up with me . but , i reli nid to change my this attitude. to change my attitude cant u just be myside n help me change ? if u want leave me just tell me . i dont care hw much hurt that i need to bare . i can dun even care bout the hurt feelings , as long u happy . i knw u nw moody . the biggest hope that i can hope is hope u happy back . i dn want to see u moody .
although u din reply me , i will wait . wait for ur reply . i wont give up so easy . as long as u happy u din reply me i oso feel happy aready d .

at the END ,  i RELI cant AFFORT TO LOSE YOU ! i NEED YOU BACK . cant just gv me a chance . its RELI JUST A MISUNDERSTANDING

MISUNDERSTANDING  KILLS  ME  =(