what the hell is going on ?

WHY!?
first time i feel so DESPARATE .
the first time i feel so UNCOMFORT .
the first time i feel so LONELY .
the first time i feel so DISSAPOINTED .
why would this things occur in my life ?

the whole day full of f***ings mood .
frm morning till night , did i smile ?
morning wake up , dad crap , crap till i fed up
PONTENG .
when PONTENG he will find many reasons to talk . F*** i dun like those stuffs .
afta that hp drop . just bought then drop . WTF is going on ?
at night . been scolded by DAD like DOG .

i just wanted to find YOU to chat about what i feel , is it wrong ?
YOU the one who say i dwn tell u . and nw i tell u , what u replied me ?
few wordings that make me feel uncomfortable .
if you were me . i just reply u this stuffs of words what would u feel ?
cant u just feel what im feeling ? and what the purpose u reply me that msg i knw ? u din ever tell me whats going on with YOU .

nevermind . its fine . HURT cant be paste back .
i just cant imagine YOU told me those stuffs .
FINE .
u just mind what i tell u .
thats all .

IM RELI DISAPOINTED on YOU !